Tell me what i should do.
Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ Saturday, May 09, 2009
HELL-OH FELLOW ALIENS ;D
the title says it all.
as you know, my really close friends know what im going through now. you guys may think it's something really simple to get over with. well, let me tell you for a first time exprerience. it is'nt.
i know i know, im kinda like getting stressed over this matter and it's really stupid. but, i have to let someone know what im feeling right? its hard to talk about, and so, i decided to blog about it. i think i fell for the person whom i never should. and this has been in my mind since 9 days ago. when someone else told me how he felt about me.
you're the one who loves me, however, i just cant' bring myself to do something my heart's not wanting me to do. i don't wanna hurt you, i really don't. and thats what makes it so difficult. i listen to my heart, and i know what i want. but i can't be sure if i'll ever get him. so, thats the reason why i don't want to get myself too involved in him.
i have yet to make my decision, because i seriously don't know whats best for me. my friend says the other guy's better. and honestly, i do agree. why? he's not like any others. actually kinda weird, but somehow i like that. theres always a similarity to guys whom i like.
urgh, help me figure out a way, out of the mess i got myself into. because right now, all i know is that my mind is'nt thinking straight. confuse is the word.
i have 7 days left and if i don't make a decision, both will suffer. including myself. this hurts, and its tough. as the saying goes, follow your heart right? i want to, so bad.
tell me what i should do, seriously. and this is not even funny.
Eleanor just wants to close her eyes and pretend that it's all over.